Waiting on my Lord
Please forgive my silence for the past few weeks. My husband and I have been walking the last 16 months through a journey of grief; so grateful that both of our Dads are both in heaven and yet missing them; and learning to care for our Moms as we all adjust to a new normal.
I found myself ambushed by a tidal wave of grief a few weeks ago. Despair came over me and I felt stuck in neutral, unable to move forward life itself. At times like these, I am learning to abide in the reality of who God is. When I am tossed about by life's ups and downs, I find my anchor by remembering the truths of who my God is:
God is my Elohim. He is my Creator who is so powerful to simply speak the universe into existence and still He knows me personally, inside and out.
God is my El Elyon. He is the absolute Strongest Strong One, sovereign over all things. ALL. His sovereignty is a great comfort because He is always good and right in all that He does.
God is my Jehovah. He is my Lifegiver, breathing into me His life! He is the great I AM. As has been said before, He is not the "I Was" or the "I Will," but the very present I AM. He is all I need, no matter the situation.
God is my Lord. He is my Master, Adonai. He is God and I am His child. It is my privilege to trust Him and serve Him wholeheartedly.
God is my All Sufficient One, my El Shaddai. He is the One who pours blessings into my life. It is up to me to have a heart that is open to receive them.
God is my Provider, my Jehovah Jireh. He sees my needs before I even know what they are, already taking care of my needs, caring for me.
As I redirect my thoughts from worry and despair to truth, His peace comforts me. And as I learn to abide, to stay in the shelter of Him, I choose to wait on Him.
"Yet those who wait for the LORD will gain new strength;
They will mount up with wings like eagles,
They will run and not get tired,
They will walk and not become weary.
To wait on the LORD in this verse is to entwine myself with Him. As I hold tightly to His arm, He is holding tightly to my arm. Even when I become weary and let go, He is still holding me! He tells Joshua repeatedly to be strong and courageous, to not be afraid or tremble because the LORD your God is the One who goes with you; He will not fail you or forsake you (Deuteronomy 31:6-8, Joshua 1:9). The writer of Hebrews tells us again in the New Testament that God will never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5b). As I wait on Him, He enables me to move forward. What an amazing Abba we have! He truly is worthy of my praise.
What about you? What truths do you lean on when you are overwhelmed?
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Thank You, Abba, that You have preserved Your Word through the ages, that we might know You. I ask that You will remind me of these truths when I get overwhelmed with the world around me. Thank You that You hear when we cry; and that You are able to fill us with Your peace. I praise You, my Lord. Amen.
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